Jerk

Okay, so Ryan has real jerk potential. I just told him I couldn't help him get off the couch because my back hurts and he gives me this look that says, "Yeah, Right." I wanted to hit him. I thought it was so rude. I told him that I'm not messin around that my back really f***in hurts.
He appologized to me for being so rude....

Took My Last Pill

I let Ryan take my last Soma, that is love. There is nothing else it could be. I always give him the last of my pills. I always let him have the last one of everything. It's so stupid because he will take things just for recreation and not necessarily for pain. I usually hang on to pills so I can be pain free. He thinks he needs it for fun. I hate it and there is no way to tell him to quit taking all my pain meds.
He doesn't complain of any pain until there are pain meds in the house and it drives me crazy. I wish I could have my meds to myself but he usually complains of some pain and because I can handle seeing him in pain I always cough them up. Just like my mom does the same thing for me. She says she's not in that much pain though.
It's damn hot in the bathroom. I just went in to scrub my hands with Mary Kay's Satin Hands and Ryan was in there taking a shower and it was damn steamy. I had to get out of there because I couldn't breath.

So Attacked

I feel like all Ryan has done to me is attack me and everything about me. I don't know what to do. I have asked him to quit being so critical and yet he still continues. It's starting to get my Psyche down. I feel like a rotten person. I feel like I can't do anything right. I am so angry and yet I wonder what has caused him to be so critical of me. What did I do? Did I rub him the wrong way? Is he falling out of love with me? What? I wish I could change it. I wish I could get him to treat me like the wonderful person he used to think I am. Am I really that bad?
I know he keeps appologizing but then he turns around and is critical again. I just don't get it. Maybe he doesn't have work to gripe at so he gripes at me? I don't know but I have really enjoyed having him home for as long as he's been home but it's all starting to get clouded by the nastiness of his critism.